The Most Awkward Moment of My Life - Again

Totally Unedited....

There it was….

The most awkward moment of my life…

And there I am…

Rambling and fumbling…

Again….

I’ve only done this hundreds of times over the past few decades…

So I’m pretty darn good at it….

We were at David’s Christmas Ham Fest…

And she asked…

“So what is it that you do, exactly?”

This is after…

Simon suggested that “her and I would get along great…”

Because of what we each - do….

And now…. I’m screwed…

And I say some dumb doo….

Something - seemingly - safe…

And I instantly realized…

There I go again…

I left the building…

After screwing the poo out of me…

Talking shit…

So I screwed the poo out of me….

And in the middle of the night I discovered, that I decided…..

That THAT was the last time….

I’m not fumbling the football anytime….

I could have ran for a touchdown…

Easy peasy…

Just tell the truth…

Instead - I avoided….

And now I explore…

What shows up, when I’m asked…

Starting right now…

So here’s what I do…

“I help people get out of their own way….”

That’s it…

I’m done…

If they ask something that tells me they want to know more…

“Maybe you’ve noticed…”

“Seems like most people beleive their inner arguments….

“And they believe them to the point that they become their arguments…”

“And that gets them to where they are, and not much further….”

(Are they still interested or finding me interesting?)

And does “upside” invite me to share more…

“This is worth noticing….”

“Seems like something far more fasciniting is…”

“What’s would you love to see more of…. In you… in the world?

“That’s SACRED…. That’s vision….”

“For them to let their vision really come to light, they have to stop repeating their inner arguments…”

“The seeming facts that they defend as true…”

“So they can bring their possibility into the world…”

“In other words, I help people find joy, so they stop chasing happiness….”

Fudge, that’s a lot….

But it might be what I do…

Or closely related to it….

Because if you can’t accept your VISION, you really can’t fully “love yourself”.

Because your VISION is you…

“Why did you come here?”

You didn’t come here to be an argument….

You didn’t come here to seek endless agreement…

You came here to Honour and Dignify the lord….

Jesus Christ your wonderful Human Imagination…

That’s your savior….

And if you can’t honour you…

By honouring your VISION….

The dance you came here to dance…

The song you came here to sing….

No matter how much stuff you have…

No matter what you do be do be doo…

You ain’t gonna be happy…

Or find peace…

TT note: That’s a lot…. And it always shows up as a lot…. Like a joke that hasn’t found it’s way home yet…. The key to a good joke is to let it become short and simple, but not too short and simple. I’m curious what falls away as I explore this today….

TT note 2: It’s publishing time…. When I can say, “I wrote a book about something pretty cool…. At least it’s cool to me…. And 2 million readers….”

Just for fun…